Before you continue reading this post, please know that I’m not looking for sympathy or compliments from anyone. It’s just a way to get my feelings out and put them to paper/computer screen. This is not a pity party, just me saying things that have been held in for too long and me reminding myself that God is with me ALWAYS! Matthew 28:20
Do you ever feel like no matter what you do it’s just not good enough? That’s how my last two weeks have felt.
I’m not good enough at my job.
I’m not good enough for that ex who decided he didn’t want to date me anymore.
I’m not a good enough driver to the person who flipped me off on the highway.
I need to run faster, says the guy yelling at me as he drives by.
By society’s standards, my body isn’t fit enough.
According to movies I’m not smart enough, pretty enough, witty enough, to snag myself a leading man.
No matter how hard I try to suppress those thoughts, some days they just rise to the top. I know that God is always with me and is there to fight the battle with me. Deep down my heart tells me that God loves me no matter what, even though this world tells me I’m no good.
If you are struggling with some of these same thoughts today, or ever, know that you are a child of God and He made you the way you are for a reason. He will use your strengths and weaknesses to speak and minister to someone. Don’t listen to the lies that the devil tries to feed you. Satan is only trying to keep you from the grand plans that the Lord has in store. I’m preaching to myself here too!
To the person yelling at me to run faster, know that I am only going to run as fast and as far as I can, and if it’s not up to your standards, then know that I’m still in training and have not accomplished my goal yet. I am surrounded by friends who encourage me to push myself and try new things, or accomplish the goals I’ve set. My friends constantly remind those around them that the Lord loves them as individuals and when I ask for prayer, they are quick to respond to say they are praying for that request. I know that God is going to use me to further His kingdom, and that requires that I shut out the negative words the devil whispers in my ears and fill it with encouraging words and promises from God. He is ALWAYS with me!!!!
Thanks for letting me share my thoughts with you tonight and I pray that you are encouraged by those around you and are blessed with kind words and sweet smiles from family and friends. I certainly am blessed beyond measure. Thank you Lord for your provisions!